-♥Salalena We speak with broken tongues.

i left off on day 8 (months and months ago), so i decided i would pick up where i left off. i really should blog more. maybe that can be a new year’s resolution of mine.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

i don’t think i have been truly satisfied with my life in a long time. the deaths of your loved ones tends to do that to you, and for the past 2 years, i have been living with feels like a very unsatisfying and numb life.

it’s hard for me to think of a time where i was the most satisfied with my life. i’m working on getting there, and i think it’s going to take me a while.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

i never thought much about my zodiac sign, so i decided to look up more information.

SCORPIO SUN : Adventurous, bold, fearing thieves and robbers, reckless, cruel, stubborn, unprincipled, impulsive, idiotic, indolent, surgical skill, dexterous, military ability.

Intense, passionate, brooding, magnetic; stubborn, unyielding, driven by emotions; stands up for self, usually covertly, manipulates power; understands deeper layers of the psyche beyond the ego, unable to communicate this well leading to misunderstandings; intrigued by the “dark side” of life; the underground, people whose job involves going beneath surface appearances; sexuality, especially the transformative power of the orgasm; self-mastery, breaking free of illusory limitations, the Hero.

General character: Scorpio is intense and powerful. Although you appear controlled and calm, you are emotional and energetic. Scorpios often have strong and penetrating eyes. They seem fun to be with socially, but some seem self-involved and withdrawn. You can recognize your special qualities and it requires self-control to prevent you from using them for bad reasons. In relationships, you can be passionate and overwhelming. You are also very sensitive and take almost every comment to heart. You discard friends when they start to bore you.

the entire top part, oh yes. i am definitely those things.

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

1. i would do anything to have my life the way it was over a year ago.
2. unlike most people, i rather be back in high school instead of in college.
3. most people don’t know before i settled on dance as my main concentration in school, i went to a tech. center where i studied cosmetology. i love doing hair and makeup on others.
4. i am still in love with pokemon.
5. i have so many friends, but i always feel alone.
6. i never thought i would love someone as much as i do right now.
7. i consider my sister to be the most important person in my life, and i have no idea what i would do without her.
8. the majority of the dreams i have are either bizarre or come true, and it scares me.
9. i don’t believe that everything happens for a reason.
10. i have never broken another person’s heart, and i’m scared to know there is a time where that can change.
11. at some point in my life, i want to live in california or colorado.
12. my dream is to perform in front of all of my loved ones and thousands of people i do not know, and have everyone appreciate my work.
13. i hate celebrating holidays.
14. inside jokes play a major role in my life.
15. most people don’t know that my name, selena, was actually chosen because of the french name marceline.
16. i want to name one of my children jax.
17. my middle name is nicole, and i hate it because it’s so common.
18. i have never eaten a twinkie.
19. i’m indecisive.
20. i own too many bracelets that i never wear.
21. both of my parents died before i was 18, and i miss them every single day of my life.
22. i wish i had an accent. australian.
23. i’m always cold.
24. i’ve only lived in two states - michigan and florida.
25. i want to learn how to play the didgeridoo.
26. i have an extensive music collection.
27. i love roller coasters.
28. i get bored of the sims 3 right after i finish customizing my family and house.
29. if i could spend every day on a boat, i’d be happy.
30. i want to travel the world.
    

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

this is an incredibly touchy question to ask someone, and to have someone answer back honestly.

i have considered ending my own life, never in detail, never something i would do. i may have thought about it in the way most people do - “i wish i were dead,” but it was never something to be taken seriously. my life has been difficult, there have been many things i had to go through (like losing both of my parents before i even turned 18), but nothing worth ending my life over. i know there are people who are important to me, and i know that i am important to people, so ending my life is not an option. it seems like i would be taking the easy way out instead of dealing with life throws at me.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

first of all, i was raised as a catholic. i went to church regularly, studied catholicism, went to catechism, and all of that good stuff. as the years went by, all of those things seemed to fade away. i no longer go to church (except for certain holidays or if needed for a personal situation), i know little about the bible, and everything i knew about the religion has vanished. i am not a religious person.

i have no concrete beliefs in a religion. i am not sure if i believe there is a god anymore.

i tolerate all other religions and beliefs. i do not think i am superior to anyone else. i do not think one religion is wrong and one religion is right. everyone is entitled to believe what they wish.

(Source: expressivity-)

skipped a day, oops. here we go with day 03 anyway..

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

well, this could be a complicated topic. let’s start with drugs. there are countless reasons why drugs can be considered an evil, but there are some drugs that can also be beneficial to people. personally, yes, i have used drugs before. do i regret it? no. do i think i made a mistake? no. there are drugs that i do believe no one should use, because they are either too dangerous and there is too much bad mixed up. drug lords, murders, and all of these things can occur. not a good thing.

alcohol. i have no problem with alcohol, but that is also something i do not use often. i believe it is alright if people no how to control themselves while under the influence. just like drugs, there are factors that point to alcohol being an evil - drunk driving, underage drinking, etc.

so, yep. those are just a little peak at my views.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

10 years from now, i will be 28 and almost going on 29 years old. by this time, i am hoping that i will have completed my schooling (i am majoring in dance), and hopefully i have gotten married and will be slowly working on a family. i want to have a large family, and i do not want my children to go through anything that i have had to go through. i want to be a dance instructor, and i want to have a career where i am doing something i love and sharing a talent with those i love.

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

i am currently involved in a long distance relationship with someone i have known for the majority of my life. i used to live in michigan (and this is where my boyfriend lives), and we used to happily live together in the same city. when my father died (later followed by my stepmom), i had no choice but to move down to florida with my sister. i wasn’t sure whether or not a long distance relationship could work for me, and both my boyfriend and i decided it would be best if we separate from one another. we were together for 2 years before we split.

his family came went on vacation during may, and he came to visit me in my new city since they were staying so close. our emotions were reignited, things happened, and we decided to get back together. although our relationship may seem difficult, we are absolutely happy and find ways to constantly make it seem like we have never left each other.